Blame It On My Ex

(album: Special - 2021)

I have a tendency of losing sleep and thinking too much
So ashamed of things I say when I get drunk
I'm sorry it's so hard for me to trust you
Add it to the list, I've got some issues
I'm just scared that you don't care
I'm thinking too much

So I say, "I need space," then I freak out
When you're giving me space and you're not around
Yeah, I know I should change, I don't know how

I wish that I could blame it on my ex
If I'm being honest, he's the best
And I'm pretty sure I ruin everything
Just a heads up
I'm not really good at staying friends
I just keep on falling, maybe I should take a breath, I
I can see the ending, here I go again
I just keep pretending I'm not making all these messes
Wish that I could blame it on my exes

I've gotten good at finding something new to fight about (Oh)
Have a fear of breaking up, so I break down (Down)
All my insecurities are bad excuses
Scared to be alone, but then I do this
Hate that I'm the reason why it never works out (Oh)

So I say, "I need space," then I freak out
When you're giving me space and you're not around
Yeah, I know I should change, I don't know how

I wish that I could blame it on my ex
If I'm being honest, he's the best
And I'm pretty sure I ruin everything
Just a heads up
I'm not really good at staying friends
I just keep on falling, maybe I should take a breath, I
I can see the ending, here I go again
I just keep pretending I'm not making all these messes
Wish that I could blame it on my exes

I wish that I could blame it on my ex
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
I wish that I could blame it on my ex
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)
(Oh, oh, oh, oh)

I have a tendency of losing sleep and thinking too much
It's all my fault, I lost them all
Yeah, look what I've done

I wish that I could blame it on my ex
If I'm being honest, he's the best
And I'm pretty sure I ruin everything
Just a heads up
I'm not really good at staying friends
I just keep on falling, maybe I should take a breath, I
I can see the ending, here I go again
I just keep pretending I'm not making all these messes
Wish that I could blame it on my exes