Dream Went Bad

(album: Dirt Road Diamond - 2019)

[Intro:]
You know what you are?
You are so much me
And you don't know me
And that's a fucking bad way to be, ain't it?
I mean, you really are me
You just don't know how to be me
You always heard here's is a bad situation or a bad thing
But the problem really here lies that you are a lot like me
You ain't gon' deal with just any old kind of shit, right?

[Childish Major:]
She said, "I'ma beat your ass, you punch another hole in my wall"
I'm just tryna show my mom I wanna stay with my dad
At this point I'm taking shots just to make sure she mad
She firing back, "You can go if you can find where he at"
I was clinging to that dream until that dream went bad
It's nightmares when your father lightyears away
If shit was heavy, wouldn't shed a light tear today
I drown my problems in Hennessy
When your mama water and your dad oil
All they problems is transferred and fast forward
To where your problems need a task force
Flipping through the dictionary, tryna find a last word
Fuck it, I'ma let you have it since you want it that bad
No sympathy for them tears, feel like you wanna be sad
All in the moment
But if we separate, just know I wait on your call
And if it never comes through, I'm back to punching these walls

[Tish Hyman:]
I'm tryna show you the real in me
I'm tryna tell how I feel today
And I don't want you to feel a way
But I'm just tryna say how I feel today
I love you, I love you (I love you, I love you)
I just wanna go my way
I wanna go my way
I wanna go my way
I love you, I love you
I just wanna go my way
I just wanna do it my way
But I love you, I love you, yeah

[Childish Major:]
Ayy, she seen hands raised her mama
So the slightest bit of drama, she run away
And how can I blame her?
Ayy, how can I tell her to tame emotions
Up and down, no guidance, we falling from roller coaster
Look, who you learn from, you can burn from
I seen my father do the same things that yours did
I know my mother hid the same tears that yours did
Despite I know when we lit we get to arguing and shit
Calling me dog ass nigga and then I spit out a bitch
And make you mad than a bitch, then you start throwing hits
And I'm just taking 'em licks
Now, I can't fathom seeing photos from arrest, so we ain't fighting
Oh, yeah, but seen what's wrong, so let me try and do the right thing
I leave this shit alone before I throw a shot back
Hit the liquor store and maybe throw a couple shots back
Sit here by my lonesome and just wait on your call
And if it never calls, going back to punching these walls

[Tish Hyman:]
I'm tryna show you the real in me
I'm tryna tell how I feel today
And I don't want you to feel a way
But I'm just tryna say how I feel today
I love you, I love you (I love you, I love you)
I just wanna go my way
I wanna go my way
I wanna go my way
I love you, I love you
I just wanna go my way
I just wanna do it my way
But I love you, I love you, yeah

Ooh-ooh
Ah-ah
Ah-ah
I love you, I love you