Not Usually Like This

(album: Make Believe - 2021)

We used to be like the lovers, the ones that you'd see in a movie
I felt like I was your Noah and I thought that you were my Allie
But we weren't out of a book
And I never wanted to hide it
But I had my heart set on you
When I guess you still hadn't decided

But I was so fucked up when I saw the way you looked at him
Did you fall out of love? Did he give you something I couldn't give?

No, I'm not usually like this
And I don't think I'm ready for change
You know I could usually fight this
And sometimes I'm fine with the pain
And I know it's hard sometimes
But I wish you could stay for a moment
And you know I could usually fight this
No, I'm not usually like this

I thought I got over this feeling
'Cause it's been six years now
But I saw you last week on the street and
I caught myself turning around
Then I hoped that by now I'd forget
After parties when we'd stumble home
We'd text while we sneak past our parents
Drunk from bottles we don't even own

But I was so fucked up when I saw the way you looked at him
Did you fall out of love? Did he give you something I couldn't give?

And I'm not usually like this
And I don't think I'm ready for change
You know I could usually fight this
And sometimes I'm fine with the pain
And I know it's hard sometimes
But I wish you could stay for a moment
You know I could usually fight this
No, I'm not usually like this

Why do I fall when you're all I've loved?
And how do I know when you fell out of love?
No, why do I fall when you're all I've loved?
So when did you fall out of love?
But when did you fall out of love?

But I was so fucked up when I saw the way you looked at him
Did you fall out of love? Did he give you something I couldn't give?

No, I'm not usually like this
And I don't think I'm ready for change
You know I could usually fight this
And sometimes I'm fine with the pain
And I know it's hard sometimes
But I wish you could stay for a moment
You know I could usually fight this
No I'm not usually like this
And I'm not usually like this
And I don't think I'm ready for change (Oh)
You know I could usually fight this (I'm not usually like this)
And sometimes I'm fine with the pain (Woah)
And I know it's hard sometimes (I'm not usually like this)
But I wish you could stay for a moment (Oh)
You know I could usually fight this (I'm not usually like this)
No, I'm not usually like this (Not usually like this)