Pressure

(album: Orange - 2019)

Think I'm addicted to these highs
This blue light, it hurts my eyes
But it's the only way to feel alright
Think I'm addicted to the stress
I guess it makes me feel alive
But it's killing me from the inside

The only thing that I see
Is everyone that's doing better than me
I try not to take it personally
I keep trying to breathe
Trying to function normally
But it's not so easy

There's so much pressure
Put it all on myself
I'll never measure up
Nothing is ever enough
There's so much pressure
I've been killing myself
Trying to measure up
Nothing will ever be enough

Think I'm addicted to this guy
He doesn't care what's on my mind
But he's the only thing in sight, yeah
There's so much clothing on my floor
But I'll just shut the closet door
And pretend that I'm not scared anymore

All this technology there's still so much anxiety
Can't wish it away
Even if you say you're okay
And it's supposed to be fun
They say just do what you love
Don't give up, like it's all so easy

There's so much pressure
Put it all on myself
I'll never measure up
Nothing is ever enough
There's so much pressure
I've been killing myself
Trying to measure up
Nothing will ever be enough

It's getting harder, I'm getting closer
Now, it's just a matter of time
This is deep down, can feel it break now
I'm losing the rest of my mind
I've been bending, soon I'll be breaking
I know something's got to change
I can't escape this, so freaking anxious
There's only so much I can take, yeah

There's so much pressure
Put it all on myself
I'll never measure up
Nothing is ever enough
There's so much pressure
I've been killing myself
Trying to measure up
Nothing will ever be enough