Rabbit Hole

(album: Blue - 2020)

'Cause I'd rather be going crazy than to be alone
(Be alone, be alone, be alone)

Careful words with no response
He spends his nights in coffee shops
Quick to fall, but he won't catch you
He disappears like Cheshire cats do

And I know and I know and I know
You don't know, you don't know me well
And I know and I know and I know
I don't know how to be by myself
I swear that I am flying while I'm walking on a wire
Convince myself it's raining while you're setting me on fire

So I'll follow you down this rabbit hole
Till I don't know how to let you go
Watch all of my sanity go up in smoke
'Cause I'd rather be going crazy than to be alone
(Be alone, be alone, be alone)

Empty words and flying sparks
With something cold to replace his heart
He's perfectly assembled while I'm falling apart
He looks just like a work of art

He's untouchable, so far away
He's further than outer space
Trying to breathe in and out, it keeps on getting harder
But I'm okay with drowning, baby, if you are the water

So I'll follow you down this rabbit hole
Till I don't know how to let you go
Watch all of my sanity go up in smoke
'Cause I'd rather be going crazy than to be alone
(Be alone, be alone, be alone)

Every word he's ever said to me
Has burned into my memory
He takes his time
Erases me from his mind
And quickly I'm unraveling
He's gone and then he's back again
But maybe I'm just dreaming it all
Aah

I drink you up, you shrink me down
I dig myself deeper underground
I can't win, I can't hide
'Cause it's all in my delusional mind