I Hate Myself

(album: Scarecrow - 2022)

I wish that I had somebody to call when I am not okay
I wish that I had anyone who cared when I am in that place
I wish I could have a mental breakdown
Without turning my life into a ghost town
So many things I would change
But more than anything

I wish somebody loved me
As much as I hate myself
I wish somebody listened
As much as I go through hell
For every time I've thought of ending it all
Wish somebody had felt what I felt
I wish somebody loved me
As much as I hate myself

I wish there was a person that would miss me when I can't leave bed
I wish I wasn't stuck sharing my secrets with these made up friends
I wish I could be honest about the ugly
Without every single person running from me
These days it's hard to have faith
And more than anything

I wish somebody loved me
As much as I hate myself
I wish somebody listened
As much as I go through hell
For every time I've thought of ending it all
Wish somebody had felt what I felt
I wish somebody loved me
As much as I hate myself

The floods I feel
This storm could kill
I'm better off to keep it damned
'Cause the more I speak
The more I see
Just how alone I really am

I wish somebody loved me
As much as I hate myself
I wish somebody listened
As much as I go through hell
For every time I've thought of ending it all
Wish somebody had felt what I felt
I wish somebody loved me
As much as I hate myself