Went Looking For Trouble

(album: New Fragility - 2021)

You are not fucking around anymore
You just don't have the energy
And you say get up off your bended knee
Grow up

The rain is falling and it chases us like a rapist
Into the basement of your parents' house
Where I will sit down quiet as a mouse
And watch you eat yourself alive
But I meant you no harm at the start

Still working on your short story
Like Simon's human trampoline
You're wearing all of New York City's complaints
Still naked underneath our clothes
Still smoking out of fire escape windows
I know it is too much to ask you to ever change

On a towel, staring at the ocean
I was late, you were right on time
It wasn't fair, but it never really could have been
A fair fight

Lover's prayer, please just let me stay here
What on earth is wrong me?
I need a girl, don't send me a woman
Answer me
And at night when the walls disintegrate
I changed my mind, never mind, think I'll stay
How could I know?

Lover's prayer, simple to remember
I was wrong, you were right
Are we free or merely just pretending to be alive
Let's go home, I've seen all I want
Chemicals on the balcony
We took enough to make anybody turn blue
It's time to leave

And when you walked in on me naked and dumb
I was too bored to imagine much love
How could I know?