Still Water

(album: Lonely - 2023)

I've been trying hard to even it up
And hurt you the way that you hurt me
But don't you think that my inner peace
Is reason enough to let it go?
I've been drowning in this ravine
A dangerous scene is all I need
I often feed off energy surrounding me
And now that we somehow agree
That the outside's broken, control our thoughts

I can see the moon's reflection on still water
And although it kinda looks I could reach out and touch it
It's not really there
Just like the mirage I see of you
I smile and don't bother
'Cause it doesn't hurt this much if I pretend like I don't care
So, I don't care

I've been dying, you've been eating it up
Just feeling like you have the power
But if I go out my way to get even, I must
Must die before I see the flowers
Got tired of popping pills
Though, I often will
I'll be lost until I can get these problems killed
No, when my problems will heal
And they probably will
I been out there seeking thrills
I don't know how decent feels
Lonely nights, I sleep with pills
It's hard to get focused
Laying in a bed of roses
But if I love white roses and love red roses
What does the color matter if they're just dead roses?

I can see the moon's reflection on still water
And although it kinda looks I could reach out and touch it
It's not really there
Just like the mirage I see of you
I smile and don't bother
'Cause it doesn't hurt this much if I pretend like I don't care
Like you're not there
And I don't care

Let me pretend, let me pretend
Like I don't care
(Like I don't care)