Albatross

(album: SWAN DIVE - 2019)

"And it was for nothing. I made him lesser. I made him like me. Then the bastards killed him anyway."

Yeah, oh, whoa, yeah yeah
I'm sorry for the things I did
I didn't wanna do them, lost self control
I'm sorry for the lies and all the things that
I do not think you will ever know
I'm sorry to myself because I live under my albatross'
And the soul, and honestly I'll probably just end myself
Because that is the debt I owe

I'm the best I know and I'm the worst you met
If you not a fan, you ain't heard me yet
Sick of being broke, sick of being stressed
Sick of all my lies, living in my head
My own worst enemy, I'm gonna be the death of me
I'm gonna be the end of me, when I die take you to hell with me
I know I'm next why you telling me?
Dark matter, dark energy
Fuck a smile that I fake, Soul that you take
Why you tryna mess with me
They wrote me off as the next X
Or the next West, or the next Peep
Fuck that, I'm Convolk, I ain't next best, I'm the best me
Don't need a label to blow up, said fuck a mil you can't get me
You chose me, you blessed me, I ain't next up, I'm the next me
Now I'm on the road, winters always cold
Frozen like my soul, that's just how I roll
I do this for the kid at school
Who gets treated bad because that was me
I do this for the ones that feel left out of their own families
Albatross, but I'm chained up in the seven sins, will I fly free?
Paradox, like the hate I lost
When the love I found couldn't find me
Fat jew with dumb face tats
I could make this, I could make that
I'mma make it so when I die, there will be a holiday
With my name attached, stay arrogant, stay humble too
I don't like life but I tumble through
Old heads said mumble rap, I'm Convolk, who the fuck are you?

I'm sorry for the things I did
I didn't wanna do them, lost self control
I'm sorry for the lies and all the things that
I do not think you will ever know
I'm sorry to myself because I live under my albatross'
And the soul, and honestly I'll probably just end myself
Because that is the debt I owe