Proud Of Me

(album: EIF 2 Eat What U Kill - 2018)

Uh, just wanted you to be proud of me
Yeah, you told me you was down for me
Uh, I just wanted you to be proud of me, yeah

Uh, why these niggas always looking for me to throw 'em somethin'?
Why people keep thinking that I owe 'em somethin'? (What I owe you?)
Why niggas keep looking for a hand out (huh?)
When they ain't do nothing to help this shit pan out? (What you did nigga?)
I was just like you nigga, I was hurting
Only thing I did differently was put the work in (I'm on my grind)
I don't know why you feeling so entitled
When I ain't have no money to eat, I couldn't find you (where was you?)
Niggas ain't real when they always remind you
You mad 'cause you ask for a favor and I declined you (that's wild)
That shit is weak, nigga
You ain't dial my number in weeks, nigga
Everybody food, I gotta eat, nigga (I gotta eat nigga)
When the last time you call to see if niggas was good, if niggas ate?
That fake love shit I hate
That kind of shit I can't relate, all you do is take
I thought you wanted me to be great, huh?

I thought you was proud of me
(I just wanted you to be proud of me)
I thought you was proud?
(Just wanted to you to be proud of me)
Uh, I wanted you to be proud of me
(Just wanted you to be proud of me)
I ain't never ask for shit
(Just wanted to you to be proud)
Yeah, you told me you was down for me, uh
(I just wanted you to be proud of me
I just wanted to you to be proud)
I just wanted you to be proud man
Uh, I just wanted you to be proud of me
(I just wanted you to be proud of me
I just wanted to you to be proud of me)
Uh, uh

And deep down I know you care for me (I know you care)
But mentally I needed you there for me (you wasn't there)
You ain't got that much love for me apparently
You talk down on me front of my son and embarrass me (that's fucked up)
Yeah, I still remember what you said
"Nigga, you over 30, all that rapping shit is dead (huh?)
You need to go find you job and get you some bread
Ain't you tired of being broke and sleeping at dread's?"
That shit stung me, I let it get to my head (yeah)
Wanted to quit rapping, but I went harder instead (I turned it up)
Fast forward a year, now I'm hot in the streets (you seeing me?)
I got my deal, I came through with red bottoms for ya feet (I came through first)
Made sure you was good first, left racks on the table (facts)
For all the times I wasn't able (uh huh)
Ain't throwing it in ya face or trying to play you
'Cause truth be told you probably did more for me
I can never repay you, but

I thought you was proud of me
Yeah, you did more for me
(I just wanted you to be proud of me
I just wanted to you to be proud of me)
Let's keep it a buck
I just wanted you to be proud of me, I'll never forget that
(I just wanted you to be proud of me
I just wanted to you to be proud)
Yeah, you told me you was down for me
(I just wanted you to be proud of me
I just wanted to you to be proud)
No matter how much money, no matter what I accomplish
Uh, I just wanted you to be proud of me
(I just wanted you to be proud of me)
I wanted y'all to be proud of me
(I just wanted to you to be proud of me)
Yeah...

You know this shit for you
This shit for y'all, this shit for my family
For my kids, nigga
Yaknahimsayin'? For my niggas, for my brothers, yaknahmean?
More life, more living
More success, nigga, yaknahmean?