A Young Girl's Scars

(album: My Life's Prayer - 2005)

A young girl 14, watching life fly past
Everybody sees her crying, no one stops to ask
About to break, the pain is too great to take...
Her last dreams disappeared with the tears on her face
God, a broken heart is all she's got left to hold
All alone as she stands with her guilt in the cold
All these lies of finding love she could never discover
Blaming herself because no one ever cared to love her
Just wanting to be held, loved and respected
She accepted the heart of a stranger afraid of being rejected
All his sweet words seduced her ears and the passion in his voice took the place of her tears
He promised Heaven on earth and promised the world
The healing words for the hurt of this poor, lost girl
Now she can smile for the first time
Happily blind and bound by the same man who took the tears she was crying
So that her heart could breathe
Now her spirit is free, thinking "This is the way love ought to be"...
So naive, young girl please
How do you really know what love is supposed to be?

This broken road to your pain is lost behind your heart and fades away in time
All the things you thought would change
Stayed the same and still you believed all his lies with crying eyes...

This young girl sitting' at the bar, drunk as fuck
Smiling at him as he pours another drink in her cup
Another time... another time... another time...
Now the world around her is spinning and she's losing her mind
"But don't worry baby, cause we'll be home soon
" Holding her hand as he walks her to the hotel room
He locks the door before he starts ripping her clothes
Pretends he can't hear her screaming as she's telling him "No!"
He throws her back on the bed, tears open her legs
Runs his dick inside her stomach as she helplessly begs
Feeling like this cracker's bitch, a whore and a slut
Squeezing tears through her eyes from the pain in her gut
With all the guilt she tries to hide her face in the pillow
So ashamed from the pain that she's losing her feelings
Watching her cry as he fucks her, again and again
All she wants to do is die so that this night would end
And as she bleeds, she prays that it's all just a dream...
Believe the pain will finally leave every time that she screams "God please!"
She tried to close her eyes in peace
But can't sleep with him laughing at the blood on the sheets
Her heart beats in her chest, under her breasts...
Her skin crawls from the sinfulness that sits on her flesh
This motherfucker... wanted more than just a lover
But if she can't love herself how will anybody else love her?

You cry inside asking God, why you have this heart that love forgot
Where's the peace when life gets hard? No one understands this young girl's scars...

It's got you telling yourself, that there's got to be something better than hell
And all the tears you cried were lost on that same night that your heart died
There's got to be a better way to make all of these memories go away...
But still inside you know you'll find this pain for the rest of your life
Looking for some peace of mind
Because everything that you see and believe is gone
And everything that you ever knew was wrong
You're tearing up your heart and you're so confused
And fucking up the last thing you got to lose...
Little girl it's tearing at you and you're trying to fight
It's tearing at you and you're losing your mind
It's tearing at you and you start to cry...
It's tearing at you and you're ready to die with crying eyes

This young girl, not so young anymore
Still hurt and broken from her past because she feels like a whore
About to break, the pain's too much to take
Her last dreams disappeared with the hate and the rape
Now she's hopeless screaming loud "Love is a lie!"
And everybody "understands" but no one knows what it's like
To see life through her eyes, to walk in her shoes
To spend a day in her skin to feel what she went through
With years she aged, and the price she paid
Was the pain in her heart from someone else's mistake
Until she finally found someone who would love her for her
And hold her hand as he walked her through the memories that hurt
Now things are getting better, about to have a child
The first time in her life that she's been able to smile
From her suffering she learned the true meaning of love
Seeing her heart was never lost with her virgin blood
And to that man who abused her, tried to break her in half
Scarred and hurt, but she refused to be held back by her past
And you ruined her life when you raped her that night...
But I forgive you and so does my wife

You cry out loud, thanking God that He healed this heart that love forgot
And now there's peace when life gets hard
Someone understands this young girl's scars
So little girl wipe those tears from your eyes because everybody suffers and everybody cries
But Jesus loves you and you know that I do too
Little girl you are so beautiful and that beauty is inside of you!
You're so beautiful, and all you need to know, is that it's God inside of you