Stuck In My Wayz

(album: Desperado - 2019)

Empty bottles sit scattered on a nightstand
Cigarette butt burning in my right hand
Laying blacked out covered in some white sand
If you're talking role model
Bitch I ain't the right man
Matter of fact I'm a pretty big mess
Holding on to what little I got left
I put my sin through your speakers to confess
Pouring pain into some to get the shit up off my chest
I'm a Dirtbag so far from a role model
Feeling like I sold my soul for a cold bottle
Now I'm swimming at the bottom of my own sorrow
Running dick first to the grave
Going full throttle
Everybody's like "What the hell you thinking?"
Cutting line after line after line when I'm drinking
So I'll be the first to say "fuck the world" without blinking
Because you hypocrites wasn't there for me when I was sinking
Now I'm gone!

I'm lost in life
I'm stuck in my wayz
It's like I can't go right because I'm stuck in my way
I got nothing left in life
Nothing left to say and I wonder why I'm always stuck in my way
I'm like a force I can't name
I'm stuck in ay wayz
Another day more of the same
I'm stuck in my wayz
It's like I'm never gonna change
I'm stuck in my way
I'm the cause of my pain I'm stuck in my wayz

I ain't trying to make my habits my excuse
Cause in the end I'm to blame
What's the use?
Either be a man and face the fucking truth or face God as a sinner with 190 proofs
I can't lie
I'm living on the edge in life and sometimes I just want to get ahead in life
Sometimes I just want to numb my head at night
But sometimes I just want to be dead in life!
Cause on the real
I'm sick of fucking up
I'm sick of looking back and always hurting who I loved
I'm sick of seeing them holding on until they had enough
And now they're walking out the door
Because they're finally giving up and so I'm praying "Dear God!
I really need some help!
I'm falling at this life
I can't do it by myself!
Put me in the grave just don't put me on the shelf!
All I'm asking for is strength
Just to get me through this hell and it's hell until I'm gone!

I'm lost in life
I'm stuck in my wayz
It's like I can't go right because I'm stuck in my way
I got nothing left in life
Nothing left to say and I wonder why I'm always stuck in my way
I'm like a force I can't name
I'm stuck in may wayz
Another day more of the same
I'm stuck in my wayz
It's like I'm never gonna change
I'm stuck in my way
I'm the cause of my pain I'm stuck in my wayz

I'm stuck
Stuck in
Stuck in my wayz
You can't teach an old dog new tricks
I ain't never gon' change tonight
No I ain't never gon' change tonight cause I'm always stuck in my way
I'm like a force I can't name
I'm stuck in my wayz
Another day more of the same
I'm stuck in my wayz
It's like I'm never gonna change
I'm stuck in my way
I'm the cause of my pain I'm stuck in my wayz

You ever get that feeling?
That you done fucked up so hard for so long that ain't no coming back?
That's where I live most of my life at
But don't spend a lifetime trying to kill old habits
Just spend today trying to make one worth having