It Was A Swift Not A Swallow (I Never Listen)

(album: Wearing Beige On A Grey Day - 2019)

Don't tell me I'm the one
I wouldn't want to be the one
I wouldn't want to know
Yeah there's context of course
These are temporary thoughts
I think one day they'll go
Yes I know I love you but as time goes on I think we'll both get hurt
And we keep clinging on whilst we treat each other like we don't deserve

When we met you gave me a necklace of a bird you said didn't have a home
I can't remember for sure but I think it was a type of swallow
Sometimes I think we both knew from the start that this was doomed
Please know, my love, I treasure all the time I spent with you

And truth be told I'm so unsure if I should even walk away
But I keep clinging on whilst knowing that I treat you worse everyday
I am distant in mind and I am distant in body
Even with me by your side you'll be inevitably lonely

And of one thing I'm sure it's that you deserve more
I am selfish and distracted, some weeks barely interacted
I am difficult and late
I do not save the date
I have myself prioritised
I ask your help and time
I so rarely give you mine

When we met you gave me a necklace of a bird you said didn't have a home
I can't remember for sure but I think it was a type of swallow
Sometimes I think we both knew from the start that this was doomed
Please know, my love, I treasure all the time I spent with you

And now I feel like such a fool for this to be what I choose
As if you weren't enough
Because I can say that I've never felt as loved
I can't apologize more for my absence of emotion
I know this song I write for you is just a selfish token

Although there's pain in the end
I would love to remain your friend
Break the past and make amends
And learn to love you again in a new way