Free To Be Or Not To Be You And Me

(album: Vitriola - 2018)

So I dug deep down
Deep inside myself
To the pitted heart
Of this scabrous shell
Oddly, all I found
Was a nest of cells
On the hunt for some significance
The indifference of the
Chromosome prevailed

So I dug deep back
Through a fractured past
Marriage, work and school
Every dagger twisting branch
Sadly, all my story told
Was an aging man

Just another human organism
Obsessed with -isms
To live is to be in schism

Still, the search goes on
'Cause it must go on
'Cause I won't be assuaged
By the cooing birds of inconsequence

So yes, I'm pissed
I feel cursed with life
I can't just exist
When I need to know I'm right
And I'll never know I'm right
And with this I'll die
Never given any reason for—

What reason do you need to be alive?
Just merely survive
Or don't — you are or you aren't

What I sing right now
Someone's screamed before
Time to take a bow
Before the stage is taken over

It's a flash in the pan
All a flash in the pan
Gotta do what you can
On the head of a pin
Gonna sing into the void
And make some noise, noise
Does anybody out there hear this voice?

Just a flash in the pan
Free to be or not to be you and me
Clearly, I am clamoring to be
I know there is no point to this
I keep on crying out for transcendence