Blind Ambition

(album: Mother Nature - 2019)

I can see her through the water, the snow, that you learn it from me, I'm a mirror
The good ones will pick you up when you're down and out
I miss L.A. like a fever
I miss driving around smoking reefer
Tell my friends that I'll make my way out again
And I don't have to explain myself to them
I don't have to run them through the thought process of what my blind ambition stems
They just want to see me for who I am
For who I'm gonna be
So I ask myself, howcome I'm still far from it?
Howcome water tastes like wine but I feel so far away from it?
I let the shivers running down my spine
For a second yeah, I feel okay from art I make
But it comes with blood and it takes me away
You will calm me down, yeah
Can you pull me back to the dirt I came out of?

It's watching my heart again
It's watching my heart again
It's watching my heart again
It's watching my heart again

It hurts like hell when you know yourself
Cause I feel too much, God I really wanna love
Cause I'm done with hate
I just need some drugs and a house on the hill where the Malibu light is
That's where my time's spent
That's where every drive I ever drive in my mind is
That's why I'm digging here
That's where all the parties end with empty hands
I wanna know that I tried it
She said "you gotta realize it
And fuck and fight till you die", yeah
I remember the time spent in the winds all pushing through

It's watching my heart again
It's watching my heart again
It's watching my heart again
It's watching my heart again