Ditches

(album: Show Me The Blueprints. - 2020)

I got these stomach knots I can't untie
Scared to take another step without falling
Don't know if it's me I hate
Or all the fucked-up choices that I have made
I'm so desperate for a home
But I can't stop myself from running
I get wasted and I'll hide away
After 25 years
Through my jaded bitter edge
Just dry your tears
Cause there more to life
Proving that you're worth a damn
When you've always been good enough

I baptized my sins
In the sweat of my sobriety
Of lonesome nights I spent by your side
The madness it lingers
Fragile framework of a stranger
Just carve another notch
Into this growing weary face
The fingerprints of innocence
Now laced with selfish lies
The time has run up
To feel sorry for yourself
I've spent so long
Holding my own two hands
After 25 years
Through my jaded bitter edge
But not everyone's cruel
Not everyone's trying to hurt you
Proving that you're worth a damn
When you've always been good enough

After 25 years
I've traveled these roads
Let my grave lay in between these ditches
And carry me home
Carry me home