The Convo

(album: It's Dark And Hell Is Hot - 1998)

You tell me that there's love here.
But to me it's blatant.
Nothing but all the blood here.
I'm dealin with Satan.
Plus with all the hating
it's hard to keep peace. (uh huh)
Thou shall not steal,
but I will to eat.
I tried doing good, but
good's not too good for me.
Misunderstood,
why you chose the hood for me.
Mean I'm aiight,
I just had to work hard at it.
Went to gran'ma for answers,
she told me that god had it.
So now here I am,
confused and full of questions.
Am I born to lose,
or is this just a lesson.
And who it's going choose
when it gets turned around.
And will it be
laying in my own blood
and on the ground.

My child,
I've watched you grow up
and I've been there. (uh huh)
Even at those times
you least suspected it
I was there.
And look at what I've given you
a talent to rhyme.
I may not come when you call,
but I'm always on time.

Somebody's knocking.
Should I let em in.
Lord we're just startin,
but where will it end.
Somebody's knocking.
Should I let em in.
Lord we're just startin,
but where will it end.
But when the funds are low
the guns'll blow.
Looking for that one that owe,
make em run that dough.

No!
Put down the guns
and write a new rhyme.
You'll get it all in due time.
You'll do fine.
Just have faith
cuz you mine. (uh huh)
And when you shine
it's going be a sight to behold.
So don't fight to be old,
or lose sight when it's cold.
See that light down the road,
it's going guide you there
Two sets of footsteps,
I was right beside you there.

But what about them times
I only saw one.
Those were the times that I was
under the gun,

It was then I carried you my son.
Led you to safety.
It just wasn't your time to face me. (uh huh)

Ayo a few of them times I thought you would erase me.
But all you did was embrace me.
Prepared me for the worst.
Offered me eternal light,
and scared me with the hearse.
And the curse
turned to grace.
When the hurt
turned to faith.
No more running, (uh huh)
and sliding in the dirt
cuz I'm safe.

Somebody's knocking.
Should I let em in.
Lord we're just startin,
but where will it end.
Somebody's knocking.
Should I let em in.

So if I'm yo' man
I'm in yo' hand.
Wus yo' plan.
Never had a friend
cuz you couldn't trust your man.
Learned to stand before I crawled.
Things were twisted!
And if you showed me anything at all
then I missed it.
Looked the wrong way. (uh huh)
I've done some wrong things. (true)
Kept a bad attitude,
but that's what wrong brings.
And now you mean to tell me that
after all this time,
it was you that kept the dog from going out of his mind.
It was you that breathed life
into my lungs when I was born.
And it was you that let me know
what was right,
from what was wrong.
And it was you that let me do
what I knew what could be done.
And it was you that gave me a good wife
and a beautiful son.
And It's been you speaking to me
inside my mind.
And it's been you who has forgiven
time after time.
It was you who opened my eyes
so I could see.
And it was you who shined yo'
light on me.