Slippin'

(album: Flesh Of My Flesh, Blood Of My Blood - 1998)

This life shit, this life shit is like
Is like bugged the fuck out, son, for real
See, to live is to suffer
But to survive…
Well, that's to find meaning in the suffering

Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I gots to get up
Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I gots to get up
Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up

I've been through mad different phases like mazes to find my way
And now I know that happy days are not far away
If I'm strong enough I'll live long enough to see my kids
Doing something more constructive with their time than bids
I know because I been there, now I'm in there
Sit back and look at what it took for me to get there
First came the bullshit, the drama with my mama
She got on some fly shit so I split and said that I'ma
Be that seed that doesn't need much to succeed
Strapped with mad greed and a heart that doesn't bleed
I'm ready for the world or at least I thought I was
Bagging niggas when I caught a buzz
For thinking about how short I was
Going too fast, it wouldn't last, but yo I couldn't tell
Group homes and institutions prepared my ass for jail
They put me in a situation forcing me to be a man
When I was just learning to stand without a helping hand
Damn, was it my fault, something I did
To make a father leave his first kid at seven doing my first bid?
Back on the scene at fourteen with a scheme
To get more cream than I'd ever seen in a dream
And by all means I will be living high off the hog
And I never gave a fuck about much but my dog
That's my only mothafucka I hit off with my last
Just another lil nigga headed nowhere fast

Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I gots to get up
Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I gots to get up
Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up

That ain't the half, shit gets worse as I get older
Actions become bolder, heart got colder
Chip on my shoulder that I dared a nigga to touch
Didn't need a clique 'cause I scared a nigga that much
One deep with the pit starting shit for kicks
Catching Vicks, throwing bricks, getting by being slick
Used to get high, just to get by
Used to have to puff my L in the morning before I could fly
Ate something, a couple of forties made me hate something
I did some coke, now I'm ready to take something
Three years later showing signs of stress
Didn't keep my hair cut or give a fuck how I dressed
I'm possessed by the darker side, living the cruddy life
Shit like this kept a nigga with a bloody knife
Wanna make records but I'm fucking it up
I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up

Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I gots to get up
Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I gots to get up
Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up

Wasn't long before I hit rock bottom
Niggas talking shit, was like, "Damn, look how that rock got him!"
Open like a window, no more indo
Look at a video, saying to myself: "That coulda been yo
Ass on the TV," believe me, it could be done
Somethin's got to give, gots to change 'cause now I've got a son
I gots to do the right thing for shorty
And that means no more getting high, drinking 40s
So I get back looking type slick again
Fake niggas jump back on my dick again
Nothing but love for those that know how it feel
And much respect to all my niggas that kept it real
Kept a nigga strong, kept a nigga from doing wrong
Niggas know who they is and this is your fucking song
And to my boo who stuck with a nigga through
All the bullshit, you'll get yours because it's due

Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I gots to get up
Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I can't get up
Ayo I'm slipping, I'm falling, I gots to get up
Get me back on my feet so I can tear shit up

See, this is that shit, this is that shit
That all real niggas can relate to
This is from the heart, baby
Don't get it twisted
X, baby