Fifteen Over Five

(album: October Forever - 2020)

I'd still take fifteen over five
I spent ten years in a haunted room
I won't call back but I wanted to
'Cause I wanted you to know
That I could take this all in stride
I fell down when the cadence changed
I hear your voice when I lay awake
Like a train to take me home

I know I'm fucked up in your eyes
A trap door that you're caught inside
A deep cut you can't cauterise
And you're horrified to try
I hope there's peace inside your mind
You find out what you're hoping for
A burnt down house with an open door
And a broken source of light

'Cause it's a long dark road back home
The light you gave me died out on my own
You know I can't help but
See things in the dead of night
I'd still take fifteen over five
'Cause the past ten I was terrified
I'm alright
I'm alright

I know we're born to crash and burn
We're destined for an early grave
Bloodshot eyes and a burdened face
'Cause you were afraid to tell
Even if I knew the tide would turn
And we'd die out anyway
I'd take fifteen in a dreaded place
Just to see your face in hell

'Cause it's a long dark road back home
The light you gave me died out on my own
You know I can't help but
See things in the dead of night
I'd still take fifteen over five
'Cause the past ten I was terrified
I'm alright
I'm alright

Hold it together
My eyes turn cold with the weather
October forever

You can dwell on it forevermore
Things will never change
I know where you're headed for
Glorifying better days
Habits are regrettable
Let the pressure fade
Terrified to let it go
Horrified to let it stay
Here it goes
Dwell on it forevermore
Things will never change
I know where you're headed for
Glorifying better days (You broke ties)
Habits are regrettable
Let the pressure fade
Terrified to let it go
Horrified to let it stay (You broke ties)
You can dwell on it forever if you want to
Her ghost died, it's your own head that haunts you (Ties)
I know the worst that you've gone through
You can't lose sleep on a curse that forgot you
You can dwell on it forever if you want to