Contradictions

(album: October Forever - 2020)

She wants to go outside
Tryna spark shit
She's got something in the glove compartment
I don't know where your broke down car's been
I'm with whatever though
I never let it go
She wants to step outside
She's tryna talk more
And God knows I've seen you distraught before
But how could you tell me you're not sure?
You'd still be the first one I'd call
If I needed someone to talk to
But I barely see you at all
I don't see you at all

Feels like a contradiction

I need to step outside as soon as you walk in
People talk when they see that we're talking
I dip out in a rush I'm exhausted
I glance at my phone to make sure that you called it
I see your name on the dashboard
You say I should try and relax some more
Why am I stuck in the past for?

I'd still be the first one you'd call
If you needed someone to talk to
But you barely see me at all
You don't see me at all

Feels like a contradiction
Feels like I've had this thought before
Feels like a loss of vision
Whenever you talk I'll listen
Your eyes could end the pressure
Your smile clouds my thoughts some more
On time that we spent together
We could have been forever

I don't know if I can hold it together
My heart is turning cold with the weather
It's feeling like October Forever