November First

(album: Epilogues II - 2023)

I only ever tried to find my prison
How am I supposed to spend the time I'm given now?
I let the burden blind my vision
How am I supposed to let my past self live it down?
I can't try and shake my sorrows
If every time I walk alone the Shape still follows close
He'll put me in a grave tomorrow
I don't know if you could ever save my hollowed soul

Take that mask you hid inside and let them see your eyes
I don't care if fear can paralyze, I'm dead on the inside
Hold that knife you're sharpening and keep it by your side
These October nights are darkening and he'll be back in time

But when the long night fades
Will you still know who you are?
When only shadows remain
Will you crawl back towards the dark?

I told myself I'd make things better
I feel like I need something to take this pressure off
Tradition made me hate this weather
Haddonfield has never been a safe place to get lost
I was in the worst condition
Paranoid delusion is the world I live in now
Denial couldn't cure suspicion
I thought he was back with every stir or distant sound

Take that mask you hid inside and let them see your eyes
I don't care if fear can paralyze, I'm dead on the inside
Hold that knife you're sharpening and keep it by your side
These October nights are darkening and he'll be back in time

But when the long night fades
Will you still know who you are?
When only shadows remain
Will you crawl back towards the dark?

It lives inside me
It still defines me

It's still inside my head
I can't escape
Something I can't explain
I saw the look inside his eyes go dead
But the fear remains
I'll never feel the same
I'll always feel the pain

I let this get inside my head sometimes
Burdens I can't bear to shoulder
Epilogues I've yet to write
Never could compare to closure

Take that mask you hid inside and let them see your eyes
I don't care if fear can paralyze, I'm dead on the inside
Hold that knife you're sharpening and keep it by your side
These October nights are darkening and he'll be back in time

When November arrives
Will you still know who you are?