I Hated Myself (Tablo's Word)

(album: Epik High Is Here 下 (Part 2) - 2022)

[Romanized:]

Sileosseo, sileosseo naega nain ge
Naega nain geollo chungbunhaesseul naiil ttae
Keoseo doeyahaneun ge neomu manaseo
Bonyeonui naneun dwaeseon an doel jonjaera gagin dwae
Wanbyeokaeya dwae
Gieongna ije
Bulgeun jongarireul dallaemyeonseo haetdeon saenggak
Da cheon beon neomeojyeoseo hanbeon georeum balbeun aiinde
Nan han beon neomeojyeodo cheon beoneul balpine
I hated myself
I hated myself
God, I hated myself
Nareul kkakkanaeda beimyeon
I blamed it on self
Namdeulcheoreom sarangbatgo sipeoseo
Nami doeryeo haesseo
Nami doeryeo haesseo
This is for everybody like me that is hating yourself
And praying for help
I hated myself
I hated myself

Tell me, who can love me when I hate me?
I've been feeling like I'm free-falling lately
Is anybody out there? Out there?
Will anybody care when I'm not here?
Tell me who can love me when I hate me?
I've been feeling like I'm free-falling lately
Is anybody out there? Out there?
Will anybody cry when I'm not here?
When I'm not here

I hated myself
I was broken on the day that He made me
He taught me to love
How to love everyone but me sadly
I don't blame anybody for my pain
When it's so damn easy to hate me
Nareul saranghaneun beop ppaego
Sesang modeun geol jalman baewotji
Na oeropgiro haesseo
Inganeun pigonhaeseo
Bihaenggi modeu hajiman nae nalgaeneun dwiro jaekkyeo
Yeonchagi doeneun inyeondeura bye bye
Nae ibeseo iryukan hansumdeulman fly high
No more white lies
Satangballin mareun malgeora
Give it to me black
Keopiwa jinsilmaneun sseun ge natdeora
Oeroumeun oeroumin daero nwadwora
Uimineun mutji ma
Geuttae seulpeumi sijakdoenikka
Just leave me alone

Tell me who can love me when I hate me?
I've been feeling like I'm free-falling lately
Tell me who can love me when I hate me?
I've been feeling like I'm free-falling lately
Will anybody cry when I'm not here?
When I'm not here

[Korean:]

싫었어, 싫었어 내가 나인 게
내가 나인 걸로 충분했을 나이일 때
커서 되야하는 게 너무 많아서
본연의 나는 돼선 안 될 존재라 각인 돼
완벽해야 돼
기억나 이제
붉은 종아리를 달래면서 했던 생각
다 천 번 넘어져서 한번 걸음 밟은 아이인데
난 한 번 넘어져도 천 번을 밟히네
I hated myself
I hated myself
God, I hated myself
나를 깎아내다 베이면
I blamed it on self
남들처럼 사랑받고 싶어서
남이 되려 했어
남이 되려 했어
This is for everybody like me that is hating yourself
And praying for help
I hated myself
I hated myself

Tell me, who can love me when I hate me?
I've been feeling like I'm free-falling lately
Is anybody out there? Out there?
Will anybody care when I'm not here?
Tell me who can love me when I hate me?
I've been feeling like I'm free-falling lately
Is anybody out there? Out there?
Will anybody cry when I'm not here?
When I'm not here

I hated myself
I was broken on the day that He made me
He taught me to love
How to love everyone but me sadly
I don't blame anybody for my pain
When it's so damn easy to hate me
나를 사랑하는 법 빼고
세상 모든 걸 잘만 배웠지
나 외롭기로 했어
인간은 피곤해서
비행기 모드 하지만 내 날개는 뒤로 재껴
연착이 되는 인연들아 bye bye
내 입에서 이륙한 한숨들만 fly high
No more white lies
사탕발린 말은 말거라
Give it to me black
커피와 진실만은 쓴 게 낫더라
외로움은 외로움인 대로 놔둬라
의미는 묻지 마
그때 슬픔이 시작되니까
Just leave me alone

Tell me who can love me when I hate me?
I've been feeling like I'm free-falling lately
Tell me who can love me when I hate me?
I've been feeling like I'm free-falling lately
Will anybody cry when I'm not here?
When I'm not here