My Back Door

(album: Brave And Crazy - 1989)

When I was a child
I dreamed like a child of wonder
With my back in the grass
My eyes to the sky to see
I believed in the stars
And I knew they cast a spell
That I was under
With my fingers in the dirt
I was part of the earth
Every living thing was part of me

But it's gone
It's gone
It's gone
It's gone, gone

I can't feel it
I can't feel it
Must've found a way
Out my back door
Must've run away
Out my back door
Because it's gone, gone, gone

Then I fell in love
Love gave me a shot of pure desire
There was nothing else like this
This unimagined bliss, this ecstasy
Deep inside the night
I believed I saw the light
Ignite a fire
And it burned into the dark
It burned deep inside my heart
I thought it would burn eternally

But it's gone
It's gone
It's gone
It's gone, gone

I can't feel it
I can't feel it
Must've found a way
Out my back door
Must've run away
Out my back door
Because it's gone, gone, gone

So I run into the street
And I'm shouting into the phone
Asking everyone I meet
I say, "Have you seen it on my doorstep?"
"Did you see it in my car?"
"Have you seen it in the alley?"
"Was it on the back of some guitar?"
"Is it sleeping in the hallway?"
"Does it cry all night alone?"
"Is it selling itself for money?"
"Does it want, does it want to come home?"

Then I saw the world
Wounded deep and curled up on my sidewalk
With the mouths all white and pale
Telling all their tales reality
So I picked up a sign
And I found a place in line
And I shouted, "No talk!"
The men all painted proud
Their words empty and loud
Are trying hard to sell my dream

And they tell me
It's gone
They say it's gone
The say it's, it's gone

Oh, but I can feel it
Oh, I wanna feel it
I can't let it run away
Out my back door
I can't let it run away
Out my back door
If I look out there
If I look out there every day

I can't let it run away
I can't let it run away
If I look out there every day