Dead Or Alive

(album: Welcome To The Chaos - 2022)

It don't matter if I'm dead or alive
I'm still living my life, yeah
I won't be wasting my time
Not gonna focus on the pain inside, yeah
It don't matter if I'm dead or alive
No, I'm not gonna hide, yeah
I'm facing my own demise
I just need a little piece of mind, yeah
I don't matter if I'm dead or alive

Cause I'm breaking
No faking
Just self medicated
I'm stuck in
A dark place
I got nowhere else to go inside my headspace

My problems, no they don't define me
I try to put them all behind me
I'm not running from my past any longer
You would think that all this shit would make me stronger

I can't wait till it's over
I'll think about it when I'm sober
These demons are getting closer
So I tell myself (I tell myself)

It don't matter if I'm dead or alive
I'm still living my life, yeah
I won't be wasting my time
Not gonna focus on the pain inside, yeah
It don't matter if I'm dead or alive
No, I'm not gonna hide, yeah
I'm facing my own demise
I just need a little piece of mind, yeah
I don't matter if I'm dead or alive

What am I to do? Feeling so confused
Numb or depressed, nothing new
But yeah I know, the drugs won't help me choose
Kill all my anxiety but you call that abuse
Falling so deep I could die
I just can't find
The person I left behind
These days its so hard to breathe
Down on my knees
It's taking a toll on me
I made a promise, promise
To get rid of all this, all this
Why am I like this? like this
No I don't deserve this

It don't matter if I'm dead or alive
I'm still living my life, yeah
I won't be wasting my time
Not gonna focus on the pain inside, yeah
It don't matter if I'm dead or alive
No, I'm not gonna hide, yeah
I'm facing my own demise
I just need a little piece of mind, yeah
It don't matter if I'm

Barely hanging on
I'm too far gone
Dragging along

It don't matter if I'm dead or alive
I'm still living my life, yeah
I won't be wasting my time
Not gonna focus on the pain inside, yeah
It don't matter if I'm dead or alive
No, I'm not gonna hide, yeah
I'm facing my own demise
I just need a little piece of mind, yeah
It don't matter if I'm dead or alive

Barely hanging on
I'm too far gone
Dragging along

It don't matter if I'm dead or alive

Barely hanging on
I'm too far gone
Dragging along

It don't matter if I'm dead or alive