Gambling Addiction / eleven elevens

(album: Forward / Slash - 2022)

I've got a gambling addiction
And I confuse love with attention
So I keep betting everything that I have
On people who don't stay

I've got a gambling addiction
But I don't raise
I don't call
I go all in
All of the time
On people who don't feel the same

So, I keep losing to the house
I'll never learn my lesson
Losing to the house
Because it's just a guessing game
I haven't figured out
How to play in moderation
But with all of my losses
Someday, I'm probably gonna win

I've got a gambling addiction
And I place bets based off affection
But I never stay when I should
So I always catch-22

I've got a gambling addiction
But I'm bad at bluffing and making predictions
So love is a lottery
Where I always lose

I keep losing to the house
I'll never learn my lesson
Losing to the house
Because it's just a guessing game
I haven't figured out
How to play in moderation
But with all of my losses
Someday, I'm probably gonna win

I wanna be
Pulling lucky numbers and
Praying to lucky stars
Finding four-leaf clovers
Counting all my cards
But I'm walking under ladders
Seeing black cats
Spilling table salt and stepping on every crack

And yet, I'm still trying to turn my 13s into 7s
So, I'm crossing all my fingers and I'm pressing all my luck
'Cause I know misfortune just won't be enough
To keep me from betting it all on love again

So, I keep losing to the house
I'll never learn my lesson
Losing to the house
Because it's just a guessing game
I haven't figured out
How to play in moderation
But with all of my losses
Someday, I'm probably gonna win
Right?

I spent all of my 11:11s on someone that didn't want me back
Every time he'd ask me what I wished for
And every time I'd tell you that I couldn't tell you that
Or else it wouldn't come true
No, I never said a word
But every time I was always wishing for you

I drove an hour and a half to go to a mall I knew had a fountain
And I fished every coin I had out of my car
And one by one I tossed them all in
And I prayed that wherever you were at
One of those wishes on one of those coins
Was gonna get you to love me back