Phantom Pain / the rapture

(album: Forward / Slash - 2022)

Losing you felt like losing a limb
It doesn't hurt anymore but I still get phantom pain
Every now and then

And I don't even miss you
Just the parts of me you took with you when you left
I loved you so much
Thought you were an extension of myself

You weren't vital to my survival
It's just what it felt like
It didn't kill me to lose you
I just thought that it might

And right when I think I'm finally fine
The healing is done, it's been enough time
That's when it sinks back in
The invisible and incurable phantom pain of losing a limb

Losing you (losing you) felt like an amputation
And I have to remind myself I couldn't have cut you off
If it weren't for the best (weren't for the best)

And I don't even miss you
I just miss how whole I felt before we met (before we met, before you left)
Thought I was in love
But now I think I was just codependent

You weren't vital to my survival
It's just what it felt like
It didn't kill me to lose you
I just thought that it might

And right when I think I'm finally fine
The healing is done, it's been enough time
That's when it sinks back in
The invisible and incurable phantom pain of losing a limb

And it felt so good to be wanted
That I willing ignored the ache
Yeah, it felt so good to be wanted
I convinced myself love must be fake (it must be fake)

You weren't vital to my survival
It's just what it felt like
It didn't kill me to lose you
I just thought that it might

And right when I think I'm finally fine
The healing is done, that scars have all faded, it's been enough time
That's when it sinks back in

The invisible and incurable
The impossible, irreversible
Pins and needles, thousand cuts
The life-changing phantom pain of losing a limb

You were the rapture
You came and went and left me behind
And I've been waiting on a second coming
But I realized you rarely give first chances
Let alone second tries

And salvation was never made for me
I've been praying to false gods my whole life
Religion and alcoholism run in my family
But I'm pretty sure all that's gonna fix this is time

It was only a matter of
It was only a matter of
It was only a matter of
It was only (it was only a matter of)
It was only (it was only a matter of)
A matter of time