Mouth Full Of Dirt

(album: Brain Pain - 2020)

Tipping the scales in the wrong direction
Biting my tongue until it bleeds
You saw the panic washing over my face
And now you're watching me rinse and repeat

I want you to stay
But I don't want to be here
It's time for a break
But the timing is not that great for me

Always expecting the worst
I'm pleading my case with a mouth full of dirt
I'm hoping to bury you with every word
That's left unspoken

I want to feel something, anything
I want to feel something, anything
I want to feel something, anything
And I don't need to self medicate
I'm already numb

The television doesn't hold my attention
It only keeps me from falling asleep
The emptiness is filling up the space
Is this reality or is it a dream?

I wanted to stay
But you don't want to be here
Am I too late
Or am I where I'm supposed to be?

Always expecting the worst
I'm pleading my case with a mouth full of dirt
I'm hoping to bury you with every word
That's left unspoken

I want to feel something, anything
I want to feel something, anything
I want to feel something, anything
And I don't need to self medicate
I'm already numb

Stimulate me
Before the void annihilates me

(I want to feel something, anything)

I want to feel something, anything
I want to feel something, anything
I want to feel something, anything
And I don't need to self medicate

Gotta feel something
Feel everything
Gotta feel something
And I don't need to self medicate
I'm already numb