Bad Dreams

(album: Ghosts - 2022)

Yeah
Sometimes I lay awake in a night terror
And pray for the light yeah
Father what's the meaning of life?
Is it the cheat to just fight fair?
Will someone please give me an idea
Why am I here? Life is short
Yesterday was just a kid in a highchair
Couple years and I'll have children in white hair
No I don't want to die yet
Death is like my permanent nightmare

I got too much to prove
Grew up a screw up with nothing to lose
'Til I started making something outta freestyles
Worked at it for years, I'm a beast now
Couldn't walk a mile in my shoes
Learn to deal with pain, feel the rain on my skin
I will evade the pills I used to pop when I was in a place
Sticky as Gorilla Tape, shit I may have ended it all
And put a bullet in my brain if it wasn't for this
The music saved me, grew up on that Jay-Z and Shady
Maybe I'm just a crazy lunatic, when at school
I spent semesters in detention with hooligans
Never one of the coolest kids
I fooled a bit around in notebooks
Started doodling some lyrics that I was spewing, spitting
Improving as I moved into a level above the rudimentary
My enemies are getting fed up
Like the Judas sending Jesus to the Crucifix
Sleeping on me? I will put you to bed like a Sudafed

I can't love you anymore
Know we been through the cold zone
Known I'd become frozen
Can't do this any
Why can't I leave all the bullshit
Days I feel so alone
That I think I might be broken
Can't do this anymore

I know you don't like me
Though I'll never let a hater penetrate or get in my psyche
You're broken? I might be
You know that when I'm holding a mic
There's not a person on this earth who's as feisty
Now that'd be unlikely, 'cause I'm the almighty
Was born as a Pisces, crazy it might seem
My life man used to be dicey, was broke as fuck
Cold, I've been icy, but now I'm too spicy
Filling up my tight jean pockets with light green
It's gotta be pricey, like boxing Nike's
That I'd cop out of HYPEBEAST, not into that designer
Rather rock me a white tee, It's cotton never silk
But I still will stick my fucking cock in your wifey
Then hit it like Tai Chi, admit I'm a wizard
When I spit it at light speed, while ripping these tight beats
And sipping a High C, I'm living a pipe dream
'Cause nightly, don't wanna go to bed, I don't like sleep!

I can't love you anymore
Know we been through the cold zone
Known I'd become frozen
Can't do this any
Why can't I leave all the bullshit
Days I feel so alone
That I think I might be broken
Can't do this anymore