Alive

And it's getting hard to breath
I wonder what I will see
When the smoke clears
Will you still be standing there
Through all of the darkest nights
Will you be there by my side
Through all of the pain
All of the shame that makes us feel
Alive

Alive is what it makes me feel
Behind enemy lines when things get real
Living by the sword till the blood then spills
We cry heaven and god as someone's then killed
For the umpteenth time man I love that thrill
Valley of death tryna climb that hill
When you're stuck in a war where your only shield
Is a foxhole laying in an open field
I been through it all pitfalls and pain
Got blood sweat and tears dripping down my face
A lot of people wanna doubt the gains
And clown my name
But I still rise out the flames
I hear the sound of thunder clouds and rain
The bangs making houses shake
It's bout to break the roof off and pound away
Man I doubt escape is possible anymore
Nows too late so hunker down and bow to fate
Wait it's still here
The fear
After all those years
You could still feel that trauma there
Post traumatic stress and all that terror
That you had to bear in your noggin
Where the problems aired
Say to god I'm scared
I don't got a prayer
Nope broken beyond repair
Oh well hopeless but I don't care
Whatchu know about a young mans scars
Who was hospitalized he was dying slow
I try to run away from the past
But it creeps back in when my eyes are closed
Look back and see the rising smoke
From all the damage that I've imposed
And I used to want to kill myself
Till mama told me it wasn't time to go
Ah my oh my
We're probably never gonna see eye to eye
But I'll still be by your side
One final time
It's why they call it ride or die
You won't survive if we don't try
To overcome what we've become
It's like I'm starring down the barrel
Of a loaded gun
The chosen one
But I still never open up
Cause every time that I try I just close back shut

And it's getting hard to breath
I wonder what I will see
When the smoke clears
Will you still be standing there
Through all of the darkest nights
Will you be there by my side
Through all of the pain
All of the shame that makes us feel
Alive

And whether you
Love me or hate me
They underrate me
I got some demons
Maybe a genius but some say I'm crazy
Try to defeat me but no one can break me
I'm not a man on this land I'm a phoenix
I mean it from ashes I rise on the daily
Look what you made me
Music it made me a monster
Music it made me a maniac
Ah
Look at these cowards
Look at these rookies surround us
Count up the hours that I put in
When you couldn't
They should have then crowned us
Bout time they give me my flowers
Get down and bow to us
I'm not a king I'm a prophet of God
I got infinite power
I'm someone who started from nothing
Was put on this earth to devour
Super villain aw
Like godzilla kong
Go gorillas on
Everybody gotta kill em' all
Going beast mode
I see ghosts
At least those egos
On these foes
Delete those
For my final act
Rewind it back
To when I was a kid
Who was tryna rap
But kinda wack
I swore one day I'd get a diamond plaque
There's still time for that, yeah
When the sky falls
And the lights go
Will you hold me
Through the night though
Late at night now
And it's ice cold
Will you love me
If I'm psycho
I'ma psycho
Yeah, I know
I'm alive not well but I try though
Fuck a high road
Had high hopes
So I pray to god with my eyes closed
Why though?

And it's getting hard to breath
I wonder what I will see
When the smoke clears
Will you still be standing there
Through all of the darkest nights
Will you be there by my side
Through all of the pain
All of the shame that makes us feel
Alive