Pain Shopping

(album: Death Of An Optimist - 2020)

Depression on sale for a limited time
You can get it in person or get it online
Half of us on a prescription, yeah
We trynna feed an addiction, yeah

I just wanna fuck my hand up
Through the wall
I need help
No one there to stand up
When I call
By myself
They just tell me man up
What's the use?
So I'm driving to the store
Looking for some excuse
I'm Pain shopping
Looking for the proof that I'm still alive
I wanna feel something
Cause all that I got
All all that I got
Is

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing
I feel nothing nothing nothing
I feel nothing
Nothing
Cause all that I got
All all that I got is

This shit is supply and demand
Yeah I'm just trynna buy what I can
Yeah, by the time that I find it's a scam
I been getting high by the gram
God damn

I just need a fucking way out
Cause it's colder
I feeling all this pressure it's a weight on my shoulder
I thought that it would all be great when I'm older
I crush this shit up in my molars, full disclosure

I'm pain shopping
Looking for the proof that I'm still alive
I wanna feel something
Cause all that I got
All all that I got
Is nothing
Nothing
Nothing
I feel nothing nothing nothing
I feel nothing
Nothing
Cause all that I got
All all that I got is

Nevermind
My heavy mind
I'll get in line
I'll get behind
And every time
I said I'm fine
Whatever I
Meant nevermind
Nevermind
My heavy mind
I'll get in line
I'll get behind
And every time
I said I'm fine
Whatever I
Meant nevermind

Pain shopping
Pain shopping