Honesty

(album: Order, Disorder, Reorder - 2020)

If I told You I still trusted You
I'd honestly be lying through my teeth
But it's funny how it's always You
I'm talking to when I say I don't believe
I tell You leave, but You won't go
I'm in so deep, and I don't know
What's going on

I gave You my heart
So, tell me, why is it broken?
If You're the healer,
Why are my wounds still open?
What do You want from me?
Are You sure You want everything?
Even my honesty?

I'm sorry if this comes out wrong
I'm afraid I shouldn't talk with You this way
But I hope You hear my heart that hurts
Buried in the angry words I say
I told You leave, but please don't go
I'm in so deep, and I don't know
What's going on

I gave You my heart
So, tell me, why is it broken?
If You're the healer,
Why are my wounds still open?
What do You want from me?
Are You sure You want everything?
Even my honesty?
Even my honesty
Even my honesty

Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, I'm going through hell
Hallelujah, hallelujah
I'm still singing that it is well
Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, I'm going through hell
Hallelujah, hallelujah
I'm still singing

I know You've promised that You won't leave me broken
But right now I need to know You're here in this moment
Why won't You answer me? (Answer me)
What do You want from me?
When all I can bring You is my doubt and my anger
You'd still rather fight with me than let us be strangers
Is that what You want from me? (Want from me)
The way You get close to me
Are You sure You want all of me?
All of my agony?
All of my questioning?
Even my honesty?
Even my honesty
Even my honesty

Hallelujah, hallelujah
Hallelujah, I'm going through hell
Hallelujah, hallelujah
I'm still singing