willow ave

(album: so that's it, huh? - 2020)

[guardin:]
Wish I would've stayed in my bed
Put all my dreams in my nightstand
You said I changed with your eyes red
Whispered "okay" under my breath
Wish I would've stayed in my bed
Put all my dreams in my nightstand
You said I changed with your eyes red
Whispered "okay" under my breath

Looks like you've got nothing done
Your value is lost
Oh, what have you become?
The critic inside you is holding a gun
To your head, one false move and the chamber is spun
I'm a fake to myself, live uncomfortably numb
Mechanism for coping is biting my tongue
I've lost focus in all this sought solace in sun
-light is burning my eyes, which direction is it coming from?
Stupid thoughts halt my momentum, run from everyone
And everything ignore your friends and family it's fun
I stopped caring so damn long ago, zero to one
I commentate my complications constantly I'm done

Wish I would've stayed in my bed
Put all my dreams in my nightstand
You said I changed with your eyes red
Whispered "okay" under my breath
Wish I would've stayed in my bed
Put all my dreams in my nightstand
You said I changed with your eyes red
Whispered "okay" under my breath

[Sewerperson:]
You cannot hurt me
But she gon' break me down into a fine pulp
This shit taste like chicken I can barely tell its asphalt
Something creep up behind me when I turn around it's no one
She could rip my face from off my body and it's my fault
Pause
She don't really mean it, she just do it for the applause
I choose not to believe it, all of a sudden I am calm
I'm convinced they hate me but they lock it in their thoughts
I just need some reassurance here and there to keep me going
Girl, can you tell me what's up?
I can't read your face when you got your walls up
Look out on the lake you could see it light up
It's even better in the winter you should try to come up

[Lil Narnia:]
Seems like summer never started
Haven't left my apartment in months
Why can't I just get you out
Keep screaming with my head down
Feels like nothing is an option
And I'm always exhausted
Tryna pull myself together
Check my phone and it's December, whatever
Wish I would've stayed, you'd-a liked that
Put all my dreams in a nightstand
You said I changed with your eyes red
Whispered "okay" under my breath

[guardin:]
Yeah
She makes home feel like a home in my head
And when I'm with her I feel hope again