X (Mwah)

(album: Rue - 2018)

It all set in so slow
There's no light
I fear the twilight of my prime
Because right now it feels so much
Like it's gonna be the end of my little life
I wanna drain the marrow 'fore I make old bones
It's been really nice to know you but for now I gotta go
I'm not long for this world
It's nice to know, mwah

So are we water without solubility?
We're not so bright for breathing cosmic debris
No, we can't see
I want vertiginous height and speed
That just might kill me

I am not a spirited vision like those young lovelies
And I'm never gonna feign an admission
'Cause that doesn't interest me
I know there's much more left than this slow death
That we all suffer at their behest
But I just can't see
What's happening to me

Because I'm never gonna see what I'm missing with eyes on my feet
And I'm never call this a living
When it's all so rote and unhappy
How can I say I made a change
When I'm getting further every day?
I'm not one for this world
(From consistency, from some stability)
It's nice to know, mwah

So are we water without solubility?
We're not so bright for breathing cosmic debris
No, we can't see
I want vertiginous height and speed
That just might kill me

One day you're here and the next day you're gone
The only purpose I feel remains in song
If Freddie wrote his Rhapsody at 29
Maybe I still have time for mine
I know a poet will find no use for peace
I know this is the only way it should be
I'll be dead before I know I'm dying
But it doesn't feel unnatural to me

So I howl at the sun
It's taken years but I feel that I'm done
Taking posies out my pockets
We can all fall down, we can stop it
There's no place for me, my ten dollar words
And all the little vanities this world incurs
It's sixes and sevens
Can we create a heaven?

So are we water without solubility?
We're not so bright for breathing cosmic debris
No, we can't see
I want vertiginous height and speed
(That just might kill me)
So are we water without solubility?
We're not so bright for breathing cosmic debris
No, we can't see
I want vertiginous height and speed
That just might kill me

I am not a spirit of a vision like those young lovelies
And I'm never gonna feign an admission
'Cause that doesn't interest me
I know there's much more left than this slow death
That we all suffer at their behest
But I just can't see
What's happening to me