Help

(album: Spectrum - 2017)

I'm sick of feeling like shit, sick of feeling like this
Had some positivity inside of me, I lost it
What the fuck was I complaining for when I had everything I ever needed
Used to wake up to it then, now all I ever do is dream it

Don't try to help me now
Don't wanna hear a thing I'd rather burn than drown
Never gave a fuck about nobody else, I only care about myself
At least that's what I been told, fuck you too
Looking at these people like who are you

How could you say that
Not one to complain but
I am sick of this pain
Am I the only one out there
That's looking for somewhere
To get away from everybody?
I don't wanna go back
Pop a bunch of pills
Until my vision goes black

I try to tell myself that I got so much to live for
I'm tired of being this way

I'm sick of feeling like shit, sick of feeling like this
Had some positivity inside of me, I lost it
What the fuck was I complaining for when I had everything I ever needed
Used to wake up to it then, now all I ever do is dream it

Come back to my senses
Finger on the trigger, wouldn't that be so senseless?
Throw it all away and leave em left with just pictures
People never cared but now they posting I miss you's

The pressure's building up I'm nauseous weak and exhausted
Don't ever get too close to me just keep your distance be cautious
I feel like I'm exploding internally hopeless, I'm choking and hoping
Death is approaching me soon as possible hopefully

I'm sorry what I feel I say
Nobody understands unless you feel this way
Numb to everything but I can still feel grey
I'm tired of being this way

I'm sick of feeling like shit, sick of feeling like this
Had some positivity inside of me, I lost it
What the fuck was I complaining for when I had everything I ever needed
Used to wake up to it then, now all I ever do is dream it

Why me?
Put it all behind me
Thought I'd get away from it
But its right here beside me
Will I ever catch a break?
Was I even meant to be here
Look into the mirror who
The fuck do I see here?

I just feel empty not asking for sympathy
I just can't seem to find what it is with me
I wake up confused and my soul has been bruised
And the world is dead to
Me I feel like I'm losing me
I feel like I'm losing me

I'm sick of feeling like shit, sick of feeling like this
Had some positivity inside of me, I lost it
What the fuck was I complaining for when I had everything I ever needed
Used to wake up to it then, now all I ever do is dream it