Emo Dreams

(album: The Reckoning - 2022)

Made a living of my emo dreams
Taught my trauma how to work for me
Now I'm living all my teenage dreams
Somehow life is better than I ever thought it'd be

Wish I would've gotten here sooner
Guess you could call me late Bloomer
Ha that line is too good not to use
The timing is perfect to tell you the truth
Yeah I been out here for a while
I been here honing my style
A Custom Catastrophe, that's what they call me
None of that mainstream thing does nothing for me
Now that I'm hitting my groove
Since twenty eleven been making a move
Ha but don't forget all years
Grinding in silence, songs you'll never hear
The world only sees about twenty perfect
The rest of Pareto scale paying my rent
All of their words still echo in my head
They say

Do you wanna be sick or superstar?
It's a lonelier road being who you are
And they tell me pick a lane but I don't
Say what you want
Wake up in new cities every night
Do you wanna be sick like a superstar?
It's a lonelier road being who you are
And they tell me pick a lane but I don't
Say what you want
Emo dreaming 'til the day I die

Knew I would do something big from the start
First had turn all my pain into art
Figured it out, wrote the book on it
Never hold anything back from you, honest
If there's a secret it's probably this
Be too smart give in, too stupid to quit
Love for the music and fans is essential
Give you longevity and then eventually
You'll find yourself at the top of ladder
Top of the world but it don't really matter
Part of the process was falling in love
With person you were before everyone loved you
Then you realize the point of your dreams
Is becoming the person that you're supposed to be
Then it's all clear, take it from me
When they say

Do you wanna be sick or a superstar?
It's a lonelier road being who you are
And they tell me pick a lane but I don't
Say what you want
Wake up in new cities every night
Do you wanna be sick like a superstar?
It's a lonelier road being who you are
And they tell me pick a lane but I don't
Say what you want
Emo dreaming 'til the day I die

Wish I would've gotten here sooner
Finally living the future
Finally I understand
That it doesn't matter if they understand
I'm the one living my life
I'm the one sleeping at night
Head hits the pillow, got no regrets
Wait 'til you see all the dreams in my head

Do you wanna be sick like a superstar?
Do you wanna be sick like a superstar?

Do you wanna be sick like a superstar?
It's a lonelier road being who you are
And they tell me pick a lane but I don't
Say what you want
Emo dreaming 'til the day I die
Do you wanna be sick like a superstar?
It's a lonelier road being who you are
And they tell me pick a lane but I don't
Say what you want
Emo dreaming 'til the day I die