Thoughts

(album: Conscience - 2020)

I found a thought in my brain
Something I haven't seen in here for days
I asked before it escaped
"What brought you here to this desolate place?"
Using blood for ink, I watch my stories fade
Writing poetry with thoughts that I erased
Every phrase that never saw the light of day
Will become the only words I ever say

And I hope that somehow
My soul will calm down
As I learn to pronounce
The language I betrayed
As I sweat from my brow
And decipher these vowels
May I comprehend doubt
With thoughts that never stayed

I felt my conscience awake
It seemed to scare all my ideas away
I asked if it would behave
I wish I knew how to make it obey
Using ink for blood, I write until I'm drained
Leaving memories I hate upon the page
I don't think I'll ever see the light of day
If I leave a piece of me to pave the way

And I hope that somehow
My soul will calm down
As I learn to pronounce
The language I betrayed
As I sweat from my brow
And decipher these vowels
May I comprehend doubt
With thoughts that never stayed

And though they'd never stay
I will find a place
To sit and contemplate
Until I awaken all that I am, now

And I hope that somehow
My soul will calm down
As I learn to pronounce
The language I betrayed
As I sweat from my brow
And decipher these vowels
May I comprehend doubt
With thoughts that never stayed

I found a thought in my brain
Something I haven't seen in here for days
I watched it walk through my veins
Out through my fingertips, into the page