Waiting

(album: Grapefruit Season - 2021)

I cry in my car
I cry when I want
All I have to do is just think about
The day that you told me I'm always sad

And you like my look
But I talk too much
It's just the sky is so damn beautiful
I feel like that deserves another look

But I wasn't nervous
And I wasn't angry
I was just so happy you were here at all
Fingers aching
Chest wide open

And I feel like you saw me
Like I never could see myself
When you told me
That there wasn't much left to bet
So you're waiting
To see if my hope will come back
And I'm waiting
I'm always waiting

But look at us now
As big as a house
The one we used to drive past
Dream about the day it would be ours

It's time that I was on a plane
I'll be holding a drink
And thinking all I needed
Was some ultraviolet light into my veins

But I wasn't nervous
From all that dreaming
I was just so happy I could dream at all
'Cause in my dreams I'm usually laughing

And I feel like you saw me
Like I never could see myself
When you told me
That there wasn't much left to bet
So you're waiting
To see if my hope will come back
And I'm waiting
I'm always waiting for it

And I'm sorry
If I never showed you enough
And you're sorry
That I'm still a diamond in the rough
So we're waiting
To see where the flood will come next
And I'm waiting
I'm always waiting