Not Yet

(album: Portals - 2018)

I don't believe you, that's what you told me
Maybe I'm see-through, clearly you know me
Better than I could understand
Back when I had you in my hands
Sunrise and starlight, that's how you lost me
Nose to the ground like a kamikaze
I was [?] to sabotage
I didn't realize the cost

And darling I know it's all my fault but it's too late
All of my dreams with you are gone like yesterday

If I go out with my friends on the town
Will it just bring me down?
Every sight, every sound
Telling me that I'll never get away
Maybe I'll never get away
I can stay in, all alone
With my hand on the phone
Even though all that's left of our love
Is the bones, I'll never get away
'Cause I don't wanna get away from you, yeah

No not, no not, no not yet
No not, no not, no not yet
No not, no not, no not yet

I see your face whenever I'm darkest
Lying awake in our old apartment
And I burn the pictures on the wall
But I kept the ashes of them all

Looking for symbols and forbidden memories
Tracing the maze of perfect pain you left in me, yeah yeah

If I go out with my friends on the town
Will it just bring me down?
Every sight, every sound
Telling me that I'll never get away
Maybe I'll never get away
I can stay in, all alone
With my hand on the phone
Even though all that's left of our love
Is the bones, I'll never get away
'Cause I don't wanna get away from you, yeah

No not, no not, no not yet
No not, no not, no not yet
No not, no not, no not yet

I could let go, I know and I'll forget
I can get over you but not yet
If I replace this hole in my chest
I could move on and grow but not yet

If I go out with my friends on the town
Will it just bring me down?
Every sight, every sound
Telling me that I'll never get away
If I don't wanna get away
I can stay in, all alone
With my hand on the phone (I can stay)
Even though all that's left of our love
Is the bones, I'll never get away
'Cause I don't wanna get away from you, yeah

No not, no not, no not yet
No not, no not, no not yet
No not, no not, no not yet (Not yet)

No not, no not, no not yet
No not, no not, no not yet
No not, no not, no not yet
No not yet

Your senses and time perceptions are distorted
(I love you)