3 SUMMERS

(album: Hellmode - 2023)

Don't kid yourself
Don't tell yourself that you're not evil
'Cause they're cheering you on
Like you've never done wrong

Don't you pretend
The world is treating us all equal
When a person can starve as another one hops in a
Lyft plus to JFK
To Europe, expenses paid
I know it's not okay
But I still participate

How hard can you go?
And for how long can you sustain it
When the force that fights back doesn't ever relax?

So relentless
Oh, how long can you defend against a cheat code
At a furious pace with a smile on your face

'Til they pick you up off the floor
With more effort than before?
It's the fate of not being bored
You're not with us anymore

If I can't keep myself from speaking loud
Where am I gonna fit in the real world?
If I can't help myself from freaking out
How am I gonna live?
I want the warmest breeze to blow
I want the banks and schools to close
I want the universe to glow
For you

I danced and sang
And I held my friends
For three whole summers
And fell into their laps
When the windows went black

I needed love
I needed warmth
I needed pressure
Sticking tight to my skin
Squeezing out what's within
That at nights keeps me awake
In crowds keeps me afraid
Heaven is in the rain
Dripping from the ceiling

If I can't keep myself from speaking loud
Where am I gonna fit in the real world?
If I can't help myself from freaking out
How am I gonna live?
I want the warmest breeze to blow
I want the banks and schools to close
I want the universe to glow
Until it's too bright
For our eyes
Too much to keep inside
Too smart to criticize
Too dumb to rationalize

Did you have a good time?
Got hurt but feeling fine?
Goofed up on bad wine
Stay young until you die

Stay young until you die
Stay young until you die
Stay young until you die

I sat around and I watched the wind
For three whole summers
An eternity lapsed
As I swallowed attacks
And just held them in
I can't be fixed
So I'm just aching
'Cause the longer I go
Is the more that I know
That I'm different than before
And you can't help me anymore

Anymore
Anymore
Anymore
Anymore