Feel Something

(album: Chimera - 2018)

I wish that I didn't miss you
Wish I could ignore your calls
It's harder when you're older
Because breaking up feels like divorce
Now I have to restart
But I don't know where to begin
I'd die a massacre if it means you could love me for a bit

If I'm gonna crash, might as well be amazing
If I'm gonna jump, let it be from the Empire State
I just wanna feel something
I just wanna feel something
If I'm gonna drink, I'm drinking till tomorrow
If I'm gonna hurt, I want battle scars and bullet holes
I just wanna feel something
I just wanna feel something

Give me a gift or a curse
See I let you play me but it was just a mirror of my self worth
I tried to follow
My own footprints in the sand
But if I'm going down, if I'm gonna love you
I'm gon' love you with a plan

If I'm gonna crash, might as well be amazing
If I'm gonna jump, let it be from the Empire State
I just wanna feel something
I just wanna feel something
If I'm gonna drink, I'm drinking till tomorrow
If I'm gonna hurt, I want battle scars and bullet holes
I just wanna feel something
I just wanna feel something

I hope it gets easier
I hope that you see
This whole time I was missing you
I was really missing me