What If My Heart Beats Faster?

(album: falling or flying - 2023)

Please don't take for granted what I said on the phone if I was sorry
You shouldn't take for granted what I said on the phone if I was sorry now
Don't forget to leave a message if you've got a problem and not asked me about
Whatever you say, whatever you do, I don't really care
Tell me about the lies in the corner of your smile, I think we've all got them
I don't think it's funny all the time, but you may see that I laugh often anyway
Well, I couldn't decide how I felt at the time and my face said differently
Funny how life will change but they never figure it out

If I ever find
My heart beat faster
I could love for miles
And still not open up
I should call this off
Knowing that I'll never feel how they could
Funny how life will change but they never figure you out

You can't read my mind and tell me something that you think that I would like in there
I'm just being polite, no, I'm not trying to offend you, I just know better now
I finally realised what I like and I think that I've always been this way
Funny how life will change but they never figure it out

If I ever find
My heart beat faster, oh
I could love for miles
And still not open up, oh
I should call this off
Knowing that I'll never feel how they could
Funny how life will change but they never figure it out
Funny how life will change but they never figure you out

Only realised the amount of times that I've had so many signs for this now
You will never know what's really right even if you have it all written down
I could read your mind and try and tell you something nice, but it's worth more than that
You won't ever know how much I feel 'cause it looks like I feel nothing at all
I'm not trying to run, you just didn't want to hear it being over
I was always scared of being so close so I'd never have to feel like this now
Well, you can try and tell and it hurts knowing that I'll never feel how you feel, oh
I used to think about this all the time, but instead I would just hold it down, oh
There's no need to run, no need to hide, 'cause I've figured out
I got this, oh well
You'll never understand what's on my mind and I know that it cuts deeper