Darkness

(album: Disgrace - 2019)

End my life, tell the reaper I'm sorry
Suicidal thoughts in my head still haunt me
Wrote the fucking note, I read it back and then I trashed it
I don't wanna be depressed, it's just a fucking habit
Got tattoos on my arms, so I can't cut
Barely even stand my fucking self, so I can't love
Cut off all my friends, they ask me why I'm so heartless
I turn around and ask them why they leave me in the darkness
End my life, tell the reaper I'm sorry
Suicidal thoughts in my head still haunt me
Wrote the fucking note, I read it back and then I trashed it
I don't wanna be depressed, it's just a fucking habit

Heart breaks every time I see her face now
Flipped this shit myself and now it's at a million plays, wow
Failing all my classes, teachers saw waste of potential
Could've been a doctor, but the music more essential
I remember all the days when I couldn't feel my best
Now I'm filling up the bank cause I made it off of rap
But the sadness never changed, it don't matter what I have
It'll never go away, it'll never go away

When I fall asleep sometimes, I'm scared I'll never wake up
When I fall asleep sometimes, I'll pray I never wake up

End my life, tell the reaper I'm sorry
Suicidal thoughts in my head still haunt me
Wrote the fucking note, I read it back and then I trashed it
I don't wanna be depressed, it's just a fucking habit
Got tattoos on my arms, so I can't cut
Barely even stand my fucking self, so I can't love
Cut off all my friends, they ask me why I'm so heartless
I turn around and ask them why they leave me in the darkness

When I fall asleep sometimes, I'm scared I'll never wake up
When I fall asleep sometimes, I'll pray I never wake up