The Self Hate

(album: The Death Of A Rapper - 2023)

I hate the life I got
I hate that I know what I'm not
I hate that I stay broke a lot
I hate how shit ain't working out
I hate that I got all this doubt
I hate that I ain't got no clout
I hate that I put in all this fucking time and I still cannot figure this shit out
I hate the job I got
I hate how hate is all I talk about
I hate the fact that I can't tell if my friends are my friends or not
I hate the girl I'm with
I hate that all I do is reminisce
I hate that I'm consumed by all my hate
I fucking hate this shit
I hate the car I'm in
I hate this Honda I want a fucking Benz
I hate the sun, I hate the rain, I hate the clouds, I hate the wind
I hate to lose I never win
I hate to love, embrace the hate it's draining keeping this hate in my heart I feel it every day

We love self hate (I hate myself)
We love self hate (I hate myself)
We love self hate (I hate myself)
Self hate

Is it lack of self esteem? Is it pride?
When you wake up, do you wanna die?
Fantasies of your suicide?
Self hate (self hate)
Self hate

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I hate the deal I got
I hate the house I bought
I hate the fact I feel a lot
I hate this music shit
I hate the records that I make
I hate my fucking team
I hate this dream
I hate a lot of things
I hate my record label and my A&R
I hate I blew my first big check on a chain and a car
I hate the IRS unnecessary stress is the scariest
I hate these bitches
And I hate my fans
I hate I had a plan
I hate how my plan panned out and I am who the fuck I am
I hate that I'm misunderstood
I hate that no one understands
I hate that my life's only worth it when there's people in them stands
I hate that I could say that I hate myself in a song and all the fuck that they gon' do is sing along
I hate myself

We love self hate (I hate myself)
We love self hate (I hate myself)
We love self hate (I hate myself)
Self hate

Is it lack of self esteem? Is it pride?
When you wake up, do you wanna die?
Fantasies of your suicide?
Self hate (self hate)
Self hate