Eighteen (Reissue Bonus Track)

(album: Open Book - 2019)

Which one did you fuck harder my best friend or my self esteem
Remember when you got drunk and said you were the only one dumb enough to love me
I don't want to live just following your script
The actress is too young and the director is a narcissist

This isn't normal, this isn't okay
But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen

You bought me beer because you were too old to go to prom with me
I threw up in the bathroom, my friends made memories
And yeah, you looked real cool to a girl still in high school
Cause you don't have to chase anything that you can fool

This isn't normal, this isn't okay
But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen

I see you out with younger versions of me
While I'm trying to find who I used to be
I'm terrified that you and I will always be chasing eighteen

This isn't normal, this isn't okay
But I didn't know any better, so I thought it'd be better to stay
Almost beautiful, the things that you taught me
I think I really loved you, I think you really loved that I was
Eighteen