I Hate The Way This Feels

(album: I Got Here By Accident - 2021)

Nothing about this feels a like a poem
It just kind of feels like oh, shit
Emotional ocean, the floodgates are open
I can't dodge the waves when they hit

I'm not comfortable
With being this comfortable with you
And it hurts cause it doesn't, by now I should be running
But when I look at you I can't move

I hate the way you can't take your eyes off of me
How I want to stay and you don't want to stop me
I'll let you kiss me, everybody's watching
I hate the way, I love the way this
Feels like the start of something that could change me
I know that means, you know how to break me
I'm manic, I panic, I don't know how to deal
I hate the way, I love the way this feels

I asked an 8 ball how this would play out
And it told me that it's gonna work
I'm afraid that you'll leave, I'm scared that you'll stay
And I don't know which one would be worse

You're a problem because
I can't find a problem with you
And it's sad cause it isn't, I've just been conditioned
To think that you're too good to be true

I hate the way you can't take your eyes off of me
How I want to stay and you don't want to stop me
I'll let you kiss me, everybody's watching
I hate the way, I love the way this
Feels like the start of something that could change me
I know that means, you know how to break me
I'm manic, I panic, I don't know how to deal
I hate the way, I love the way this feels

Internal battle, but still in spite of it
You held the apple, I took a bite of it
Bittersweet sour candy
Don't like how much I'm liking it

I hate the way you can't take your eyes off of me
How I want to stay and you don't want to stop me
I'll let you kiss me, everybody's watching
I hate the way, I love the way this
Feels like the start of something that could change me
I know that means, you know how to break me
I'm manic, I panic, I don't know how to deal
I hate the way, I love the way this feels
I hate the way, I love the way this feels