Exit Pt. 3 (Heart on My Sleeve)

(album: Why Did You Do It? - 2018)

You're so soft, it's pathetic
How can you be soft at rock bottom?
How are you so hard on yourself?
You've hardly got real problems

First of all, just stop overthinking
'Cause your brain is just like...
Next, drag yourself to the bathroom
Take these pills with some water
Swallow pride with saliva
It's like you're hardwired to give yourself a hard time
It's like you make problems when everything's fine

I'm the only one who haunts this ghost town
All my life I felt lost, but in death I was found
And I won't scream, I won't make a sound

Shut the fuck up, it's like you've always got this attitude
We just wanna help and we just want what's best for you

You're never fucking home
Or you're always in your fucking room
We're scared you'll do something stupid
If we don't get you help soon
Sometimes I imagine myself hanging from the ceiling fan
Maybe then the world will stop spinning without me
Maybe then I'll get around to taking the picture perfect life

The picture perfect life I was framed with

It's this constant push and pull
To decide the rest of my life in one night
I don't know what to say, so I'll just say goodbye
Let you down for one last time
My biggest fear has always been yours, not mine
But, at this point, it feels like I'm hurting more than helping
Is this the last chapter or textbook teenage bullshit?
Wipe my tears with my hoodie

I wear my heart on my sleeve
Feed the dog
Call mom
And just fucking leave
Four walls, 3 AM
Two hands, one decision
To kill everyone, or myself
That is the question

You've loved me so much more than I loved myself
I don't care about anyone else
I don't know what you saw in me
All I ever wanted was to rest in peace

You've loved me so much more than I loved myself
I don't care about anyone else
I don't know what you saw in me
All I ever wanted was to rest in peace
I don't know what you saw in me
I don't know
Saw in me
Rest in peace, Jamie