I Saw Light

(album: The Line Is A Curve - 2022)

Beginning with an ending in mind, I took a minute
Saw too much. Ahead of my time
Came away laughing, blushed
Carton crushed
Everything was unfastened. Rush
In the stifling air of a thin little moment
Rush
Can't keep my focus
My skin's your skin
Vivid as a memory fading by the minute
Screaming your name like I was afraid you'd be in it
You're truth to me. Clutching at straws. Don't know you
Never even met you

Pause

I put my pen down and started to drift
I stopped living
Stared at the grass at the edge of the cliff
I saw women
Heart is a yellowing brick
Dead set on a wish that can never exist
A transition

I want to be is but I'm isn't

Ambition kicks me awake and says, dress
I was looking for the door
All I found was your flesh, your flesh, your blessed dismembered hands are sand
I'm stranded

I want to be thrown against the wall
By a tall cold dickhead
With a morse-code accent
That I can't look at
Without starting something I'll regret

Everything's beautiful
I digress

I saw light in the buildings at night
I saw light in the windows as I passed them by
On the river. On the ledge. On the bridge
On the side of your face at the bar
It went dark. I saw light

I saw light in the buildings at night
I saw light in the windows as I passed them by
On the river. On the bridge. On the ledge
On the side of your face at the bar
It went dark. I saw light

Tapped out a few laughs on the summer's grass
And in all the sky's many merry blues
I read one thousand words
Of pretty good news
And now heliotropes around your light gather
And they chatter and chatter and they chatter
Make insipid remarks about things that matter
'Till they don't anymore
'Till they don't weigh a crumb
Until the caring in you is surely done
Until dead is every one of us floating about
Between good bookie odds and 2 for 1 on stout
So live it all out
In lust of a stage
Where you were busy trying to trap the heart on the page
Having scenes arranged into your bones
And happily arranging yourself to be alone
Believing happiness to be a train that just doesn't stop for you
A pain but a friend that doesn't pretend
A pain but a friend that doesn't pretend
A pain but a friend that doesn't pretend

I saw light in the buildings at night
I saw light in the windows as I passed them by
On the river. On the bridge. On the ledge
On the side of your face at the bar
It went dark. I saw light

I saw light in the buildings at night
I saw light in the windows as I passed them by
On the river. On the bridge. On the ledge
On the side of your face at the bar
It went dark. I saw light