good at being broken

I've been piecing it together but the puzzle's scattered everywhere
I've been holding onto moments that I should've let just disappear
I just drove past your apartment but I know that I'm not welcome here
I've been caring 'bout someone who doesn't know that I'm no longer there

I tried my best
To let it not take over
But I'm losing my breath

I got good at being broken
I got really damn good at being second best
I got used to barely coping
Familiar with pain in the pit of my chest
I kinda started loving being in the dark
I lost my way in what I thought it was
If you let your heart open
Then prepare, you better prepare
To be good at being broken

I've been tripping on grief, loving pain and holding onto hurt
I've been reminiscing memories but sometimes that just makes it worse
Even when I'm free from falling, I find myself falling back in
Regret it every single morning, you find a way back under my skin

I got good at being broken
I got really damn good at being second best
I got used to barely coping
Familiar with pain in the pit of my chest
I kinda started loving being in the dark
I lost my way in what I thought it was
If you let your heart open
Then prepare, you better prepare
To be good at being broken

I'm so good at being broken
And it's like no one noticed

I guess I'm good at being broken
I got really damn good at being second best
I got used to barely coping

Familiar with pain in the pit of my chest
I kinda started loving being in the dark
I lost my way in what I thought it was
If you let your heart open
Then prepare, you better prepare
To be good at being broken

Broken
Broken