Not Used To It

(album: Sweet Sexy Savage - 2017)

Typical story of an Oakland girl
Typical story heard around the world
Mama on her way, daddy up above
Out of 14, I guess it made me tough
Used to roll up on a block on the east side
I crack enough 40's by the sea side
Lose a nigga every week to a drive by
Whole bookshelf of stories behind these eyes I

I don't mean, I don't mean for it to sound so damn common
I don't mean, I don't mean for it to sound like I'm jawsing
But when I say it's hard to open up to you
It's hard to get close to you
I want it with everything in me to one day just say I'm in love with you

But I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, I am not
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, hey
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, I am not
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it
(I'm not used to it)

One day, one day, one day
One day, one day, one day

All single mothers in my family
Don't know if you're really understanding me
Never seen a nigga be a real man
I never seen a nigga with a real plan
And I still never been to a wedding
And I just see my family stressing
Over sons who grew up with no daddies and every generation
Was all just raised by my granny
But nah

I don't mean, I don't mean for it to sound so damn common
I don't mean, I don't mean for it to sound like I'm jawsing
But when I say it's hard to just side with you
It's hard to confide in you
I want it with everything in me to one day just say that I ride with you

But I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, I am not
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, hey
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, I am not
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it
(I'm not used to it)

One day, one day, one day
One day, one day, one day

Sometimes I pop off 'cause it's all that I'm used to
Sometimes I pop one 'cause I have to
Sometimes I run from all my problems
Sometimes I make sure that I solve em
I don't mean, I don't mean for it to sound so damn common
I don't mean, I don't mean for it to sound so damn common, but I'm not used to it

But I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, I am not (baby, yeah)
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, hey (I'm not used to it)
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it, I am not (baby I'm sorry)
I'm not used to it, I'm not used to it (I'm not, I'm not)

Yeah, yeah
One day, one day, one day, one day
Yeah, yeah, hey yeah
'Cause I'm not used to it