Did I Fail?

(album: This Is Weird - 2020)

Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
New York winters, yeah, it's colder than a
Yeah, yeah (Yeah, yeah)
Yeah, yeah, yeah yeah

Did I fail? (Did I fail?) Did I fail? (Did I fail?)
Well, it's been a rocky road
And I cannot tell (Cannot tell), cannot tell (Cannot tell)
I just put my heart and soul in this shit (Soul in this shit)
Got some niggas, yeah, I owe them a bit (Owe them a bit)
New York winters, yeah, it's colder than a bitch (Colder than a bitch)
You'll get splinters if you hold on to the bench (Hold on to the bench)
So I move, move, move, move

Why you ain't on yet? You ain't make the right song yet?
I thought it'd be rad to pack up my bags, moved to California, aye
Literally living in the studio, I shower at a Planet Fitness
I ain't got no time for bitches, on the real, I ain't even got space for my mom to visit
A year or two behind on my doctor visits, I can't afford health insurance
Young nigga in the machine like Neo, young nigga in the machine like Florence
I just got bills, no Gates, took an edible to feel no ways and I still do not feel so great
When your fans listened in the sixth grade, man, you really start to feel your age
I had pull the rug out from under me, I swore that by now I'd be living comfortably
While I was out drunk getting girls to fuck with me, my best friend co-founded a fucking company
I should count my blessings, I feel you, fam, but I'm still lightyears away from where I want to be
So, if you think about it, I'm closer to where I was
I want to pull up on a college campus with my hand out
And slap the optimism out a student on a planned route
The girl that you dating is not who you'll marry, enjoy graduation, the tale of the fairies
I'm sorry for hating, I just really been fucking depressed, damn

Did I fail? (Did I fail?) Did I fail? (Did I fail?)
Well, it's been a rocky road
And I cannot tell (Cannot tell), cannot tell (Cannot tell)
I just put my heart and soul in this shit (Soul in this shit)
Got some niggas, yeah, I owe them a bit (Owe them a bit)
New York winters, yeah, it's colder than a bitch (Colder than a bitch)
You'll get splinters if you hold on to the bench (Hold on to the bench)
So I move, move, move, move

Gee, I'm low, I feel as mid as the weed I roll
I kid, I kid, you can see I'm dope through my IG pictures, can't see I'm broke
Who got bread? Yeah, I need a loaf, too much Uber eating
Always had a big forehead, talking to my forehead like, "Nigga, why are you receding?" I'm tryna face this shit
My last relationship was like five years ago, I don't trust anyone high or minimal
Highly cynical, lost a friend or two, but don't tweet subliminals
Rappers blowing up off a hell of a reach, I'm like, damn, "These niggas I'm much better than, please!"
Shit ain't that deep, got my head in the sea, I should stop kicking shells on the beach
Poor little 401K (401K), don't got no 401K (401K)
I meet my women at a bar (Women at a bar), I don't be going on dates (Going on dates)
Shit, I don't even got a car (even got a car), I got like four in different states
They'll probably choose up April showers, I swear it's pouring when it rains
Did I fail? Weighing success on a little scale, I've been in a funk, in a lil' spell
Tryna get out like Lil Rel, lacking reason, that's a real jail
Overthinking, that's a real L, over-seasoned, that'll kill snails, done believing, I don't got time
I walk the line between here and hell, find some meaning, you'll feel well, yeah

Did I fail? (Did I fail? Was it meant for me?) Did I fail?
Did I fail? (Tried four, five times, was it meant to be?)
Cannot tell (Umm, thinking differently) Cannot tell
Cannot tell (My oh my, I'm the enemy)
Soul in this shit (Was it meant for me?)
Owe them a bit (Tried four, five times, was it meant to be)
Umm, thinking differently
My oh my, am I the enemy?